Cage

my heart desire is far and near,
fragile as a snowflake, falling from the winter tree,
happiness near and far, clouds moving true a summer storm,
emotions are high and low, from the Winds of east,
the cage is open, smell of freedom is near.
I look into the eyes of healing,from the freedom , behind the Cage
 bondage`s are breaking of by one, by one.
hear the whisper in my ear ” scream let it out, let it out “

N.H.W

 

 

My Journey of Healing

Morning fellow Bloggers, sitting her as always and thinking what I could write today. I been pretty creative with my poetry of my heart. I been soul searching allot this days. Who I am, Meditating helps allot to cleanse your spirit and little prayers.I noticed also Music helps allot. But know I am unsure of my self lately, do you feel that way sometimes also? I feel very close to our Mother Earth, and with this, my healing began. I don’t think to much about my past. and all the wrong what has been done to me, as a Baby, Child and a young Adult. I don’t feel the anger or the deep hurt I felt for so long. My deep scares are healing every day.I feel a kinship to the Native American, and you can say there helped me with my healing progress. I been reading there wise words, listing to there healing music. And just having a open mind and spirit about it. My heart been searching for so long for peace and inner healing. I that it would never happen. I struggled true the years of very deep depressions, it was so bad at one point that I almost ended my life. I lost 3 days of myself. I had to learn a very hard live lesson. People where looking at me with pity, accusations how could I be so selfish, and that I am crazy. But know one ask me why? or could see my suffering in my heart, mind and spirit. My Sister you can say was the only one who really understood why. She did not but me down , no she lifted me up. I knew I had to let the past go, to start my inner healing. But when you surrounded by negative energy its hart to see the positive dings in life. I am a Women who don’t ask for help. And I never will ask for help. there are my burdens to carry…. I cant ask no one to carry them for me. This why I feel such a kinship to the Native American. There so close to the Earth to the land and there so free with there inner self, spiritual wise. there really stay true to them self. Even with there every day struggles. I always say you can learn allot from them. To have a open mind, body and spirit. For you it mid sounds crazy, but I feel great I am more happy with myself then I been in years. I can let go of my nightmares of the past. Don`t think, I don’t have struggles yes I do still struggle with my self, but in a positive way.I still have insecurity with life. Can I do what I want to do with my Life? Everyone has them or not? But my mind is not full anymore with negative tough’s,I don’t see everything in black and white. I starting to trust myself more. And just being me…. and do you know what? it feels freaking good 😀 being me… even when I am wired…. but that’s okay … I am stronger now, I starting to Love life more. And don’t matter what life throws at me… everything will be okay…. and to the right time everything will fall in place how it should be…..

Its my story I am writing what I been true and how I overcome them with no medicine, Its my believe. I cant speak for you or anyone else not to take medicine, when you struggle with depression. Everyone is not the same. My depression came from Childhood drama. I am not giving you any advice how to heal your mind from it. Everyone is different and unique. But I know how it feels to be lost and be looked at differently. My Willpower always was to find my inner peace and be happy who I am. I am 38 years old. And it was for me a very painful road to find it…. Don`t give up on yourself even when the World has. You special in anyway!!! and you deserve inner peace and happiness. Who every is reading this I wish you many blessings…. and you are special !!!